uneasiness

Apa lagi? ada dalam hati ni. aku benci. sumpah aku tak minta rasa ni. It might be punishment against my action. I promise I would never ever let this feeling fall me down again. I hate it. hate it as much as I'm gonna hate you.

I know, it not supposed to be inside. I should get rid off earlier. but as others said. it's a game. you still wanna try it up. still wanna chase it though.

but why? why me? and because of it, I betray him, who love me much. everything is just a fake.

here, I learned new thing, new type of people, and it's me my self again have to deeply looking it at. probably, the big mistakes seems to be hard to recover. but I wish it would be soon. hopefully not too soon cause I couldn't hold it on. the strength is not there, top of wishlist is to make you happy. you and you happy. everyone deserve to be happy including me.


there's always going to be those 4 different guys in your life

Guy #1: your best friend.
He’s there for you, always. He would never let you down, cares about you, comforts you when you’re down, protects you when you’re put down. He would never betray you. Keep him.

Guy #2: the player.
You can’t help but to fall for him. He seems to do everything right, so you think you love him. In the end, you find out he played you, lied to you, used you, and probably didn’t really even care about you. Forget him.

Guy #3: the enemy.
The one who would do ANYTHING just to bring you down. He’ll humiliate you, judge you, embarrass you, anything he can do just to make you feel smaller than what you are. Ignore him.

Guy #4: your soul mate.
Often turns out to be you’re best friend. He tells you how it is, even if you don’t want to hear the truth. He’ll hold you, kiss you, protect you, and love you no matter what. You can talk to him about anything. He’ll see you at your worst and still think you’re beautiful. He’s there for you no matter what. Love him.


YOU, no words can tells how bad I am, hurting you much. break the promise often,
and never realize that you'll always be there for me. I'm just blind. one day, would be my day. to go through the pain. I understand hardest thing in your life is to chasing my smile back to you. To switch the feeling back. to make everything back to normal. It was my fault. sorry I just can't. thanks for giving me a chance to change.